Unbelief Series by Author C.B. Stone - Darkness has a name... **Excerpts ** Giveaway**

Unbelief Book 1
by C.B. Stone
Genre: YA Dystopian
171 pages

Darkness has a name...

From the ashes of destruction, the Elite rose up as the ruling power of the New World, enforcing new laws.

Those laws are broken at great peril.

When she witnesses her best friend taken by force in the night, she knows he is destined for a fate worse than death.

She’s heard the rumors, the whispers of what happens in Rehabilitation.

She’s seen the dead looks in the eyes of those who return.

If they return.

But she can’t ignore what she's witnessed...

No matter the danger.

How can she abandon her best friend to such a fate? She must try to save him...

No matter the cost.

This is a dystopian series set in a post-apocalyptic world with hints of romance. Books should be read in order. May be cliff hangers.


Outside is freezing. The snow has piled up so high it’s up to my thighs and I wade through

it more like water than anything. It makes my progress slow going. That coupled with the biting

wind doesn’t help me stay warm. It would be better if I were just walking through town. It’d still

be freezing of course, but the buildings would help block some of the harsh wind.

Unfortunately, I’m not in town.

I’ve hopped over the little rock wall—I couldn’t even see it beneath the snow—and now

I’m heading out in the icy cold toward the tall ruins of the Old World.

Normally, I wouldn’t be out here. It’s stupid being out here during winter, especially alone.

It’s why me and Jacob always hunted and worked together. If something goes wrong, if I fall

through a rotted floorboard or get caught by a hungry animal, or if I just get lost in the neverending

white, there is no one out here to help me or save me. What’s worse, it’s incredibly


That wouldn’t worry me too much most of the time, but lately it’s been a bad idea to do

anything illegal. Selectors and other Elite have been unusually active in the Gate lately, taking

people in the middle of the night for Trials and Rehabilitation, then throwing what’s left of their

family to foster care… It’s never been this bad before. What I’m doing is just dumb. The worst

kind of dumb. The kind of dumb just asking for punishment.

Which is exactly why I’m doing it.

It’s maybe another mile until I hit the edge of the Old World. From there, I’ve decided I’ll

head west. Jacob and I haven’t seen all of the ruins, but we’ve seen a lot over the years and I’ve

got a good feel where things are now. Most days, I’m only out here looking for things to take

back to town. Stuff I can either use myself or things I can sell to the denizens of the Gate.

Today’s different. Today, I’m looking for something specific. So I’m headed to the west end of

the Old World town, in hopes of finding it.

I pull my coat tighter around me, tucking my chin so I can cover my face, ducking low into

my scarf. Only my eyes are visible, looking out across the wide expanse of white snow. Each

step I take I struggle with. It drains my energy and I wonder fleetingly if I’ll even make it back

when things are all said and done. I tighten my jaw, determination washing through me.

“I’ll make it,” I mutter to myself, my voice whipped away immediately by the fierce wind.

The cold air feels like needles against my skin, but I push forward anyway. Sometimes my

stubbornness pays off.

After nearly forty-five minutes, I reach the edge of the ruined city. It doesn’t normally take

me so long, but then I usually don’t go out in the midst of a blizzard to trudge through thigh deep

snow. All things considered, I’ve made good time.

Entering the city makes an instant difference. It’s still cold outside and there’s still lots of

snow, banks of it piled up against decaying buildings, and roads completely covered by it. But

the wind is less, thankfully. The buildings break at least some of it and what raw skin I have

exposed is grateful for any reprieve.

I’m careful while I move through the city ruins. Although it’s winter and no other sane

person is going to be out in all of this, I know animals aren’t quite the same. Most of them, much

like people, will be hiding wherever they can find warmth. But not all of them. Some will be out

scrounging around for food, searching for whatever protein and fat they can find. A frail little

human girl would make an awesome meal for the big cats that like to roam the area. I’m quiet as

I move, making for slow going. Every so often I’ll pause to make sure there isn’t anything

moving out there, or worse, stalking me. I’ll listen and watch and wait, then when I decide it’s

safe, I continue moving.

Most of the ruins look the same. The tall buildings boast dirty or broken windows, gates

bent or torn down altogether, and doors leaning open on their hinges. Inside, they’re filled with

filth. A mixture of collected dirt, rubble, and remains of whatever poor animal took shelter inside

to die. That’s how I know I’m getting close to the west end of the city. Things start changing,

fast. The buildings surrounding me get shorter. Some of them I’m sure were always short, but

others look like they were once skyscrapers like the rest of the city and have just crumbled since

being built. As they get shorter and shorter, other things start to change too. Black tar and

charcoal covers the structures.

There are square patches with metal skeletal remains, the only thing left of whatever

structure was once there. Nothing ever grows here, not even in spring or summer months. There

are scorch marks that cover the ground and even snow doesn’t seem to linger in these places. I

shiver, unable to control it. My eyes roam the ruins, glinting grimly, eager to get what I need and

get out of here.

Once, we came across a map of a small portion of the old city. I remember not being able

to read it, not because I couldn’t read, but because the symbols and everything on it didn’t make

any sense. There aren’t any official maps left of the old cities, at least not complete one, only

fragments here and there like what we found. It’s difficult to say what exactly this place used to

be, but Jacob had a theory. He always had a theory. My lips quirk at that. I miss his theories.

He used to say this area was destroyed so much worse than the others that it had to have

been important. People only destroy things, try to erase them completely, when they rabidly hate

it—or when they know it’s truly important to someone else. He said when the God Wars

happened years ago, the Elite targeted places that were most significant to the citizens of the Old


I don’t know if his theory is true or not, but I wouldn’t put it past the Elite to destroy the

thing that was most important to someone. I wouldn’t put anything past the Elite. My lips tighten

as I keep trudging, eyes constantly scanning the area around me, trying to quicken my pace.

Walking through the charred landscape makes me uneasy now. The snow and the wind and

the cold were bad enough, but here, in this particular section of the ruins, things are… eerie. It is

weird there isn’t any snow on the ground, even though snow still falls from the sky. It is weird

the ground feels warmer and the air here feels thicker and harder to breathe.

I never liked being in this part of the city, but Jacob used to always want to come here.

“This is where we’ll find it,” he always declared, tone adamant, eyes lit with hope and

determination. “If there’s anything they’d want gone, completely eradicated, it would have been

that. And they tried to get rid of everything around here.”

Whether he was right or wrong, we never found what he was looking for and after a while

he finally agreed the place was creepy and promised he’d stop making me come back here.

“Guess you broke your promise,” I mutter into the creepy too still air.

Because he is making me come out here, whether he meant to or not this time. My boots

clop over the blackened cement as I keep a sharp eye out. I’ve come here for something specific,

something that will guarantee attention.

Last night, I didn’t sleep. Not even a wink. Every time my eyes tried to slide shut, I had

this image of Rehabilitation flash in front of them. Like it was burned into my eyelids. I pictured

Jacob there, horrible things happening to him… and then Miriam would be standing beside him,

limp and just sort of staring with those wide gray eyes. She would watch, horrified as he was

hurt, hurt badly even, but she wouldn’t do anything. And then there was the body.

I always tried not to look at the body lying on the ground near Miriam’s feet, but I didn’t

have to to know instinctively who it was. My dad. Dresden Reardon, his light brown hair matted

down to his face and his hazel eyes just staring out at nothing… I shove the picture hastily from

my mind, refusing to give it a foothold. That’s what kept me from sleeping last night. The idea

people I care about are trapped there in Rehabilitation, being tortured just because they believe in

something the Elite doesn’t like.

At this point, I can’t help Miriam or my father. Miriam has come and gone from

Rehabilitation and whatever damage they did is already done. I can’t stop it or change it, and my

Dad is dead. Jacob is there in that camp now. And I can still do something to help him. I’m

determined to do something.

The problem is, I don’t quite know what that something is. I don’t know how to help him.

Miriam told me last night as we sat in front of the fire if I wanted Jacob back—and I do, I

desperately do—then I’m going to have to bring him back myself.

But she didn’t tell me just how I’m supposed to do that. So I stayed up, trying not to think

or dream, and came up with an idea during the night. It’s a stupid plan. It’s a plan that’s going to

get me into more trouble than I know how to get out of, I’m certain. But what do I have to lose?

Jacob is gone. My best friend, the only person in this world I still care about is stuck in some

glorified concentration camp. He’s basically a prisoner.

No one will let me see his sister, so I can’t take care of her. I can’t keep her safe or be of

any comfort to her, and that would be the only thing that would stop me from trying the

unthinkable. So… I came up with a plan.

I’m going to break into Rehabilitation.

“Yeah, brilliant plan,” I say to the cold, trying not to focus too hard on the other part of my

big plan.

I try not to touch anything in the blackened area, still worried there’s something not quite

right about the region and it’s going to make me sick if I touch any of it. Instead, I use the toes of

my boots to kick at things, moving them around as I search the barren ruins.

I have to find something provocative. Something forbidden. That’s the other part of my big

plan. Once I realized I would have to get into Rehabilitation, I also realized there was only one

way I could do that: fail at Trial. Except that’s the kicker. I’ve had only one Trial the last few

years, compared to most people who have anywhere between two and ten Trials in a single year.

I never get Selected for Trial. Why? Because everyone knows I’m not a Believer. There’s no

point in testing me, it’s always been a wasted effort. After my mother’s death, I’m surprised they

test me at all anymore.

Most of the time, I would consider that a good thing. I always knew I didn’t want to go to

the Hall of Science and sit in a white room for hours while they tried to decide if there is

something in my head they didn’t like. Except now I know I need to get there, so things are

much more complicated.

First, there’s the problem that Selections are random. Random time, random place, random

person. Selection might be at the Gate this month, or up at one of the other sectors instead. They

might take only one person or they might take twenty. It’s impossible to predict, which is

deliberate. They don’t want to give us any time to prepare for our Trials. They like to catch us

off guard so they can discover the truth about what we think.

That’s not a huge problem though. Random Selections don’t affect me in this case seeing

as how I want to go to Trial. I just have to be patient and wait. Not my strongest virtue, but what

choice do I have?

The second problem is a tiny bit trickier though. When Selection does occur, how will I

make sure they Select me? I’m the least likely person to get Selected. No one’s going to be

suspicious of my beliefs. Absolutely no one. I sigh, incredulous that unbelief is a bigger problem

for me right now than Believing. That’s why I’m out here, kicking around the charcoal of the

Old World. I kind of hope me being out here at all is enough for them to look my way, but I

don’t think it is. They never noticed my frequent trips into the Old World before, so why would

they start now? No, I’ve got to give them a bigger reason. A reason they can’t ignore and I’ve

decided what that reason will be. I’m going to find something banned and get caught with it.

Unfortunately, it’s not enough to just get caught with a book or clothing or something they

know is from the ruins. Instead, I’ve got to come back with something bad… something from a

church for instance. The ghost of a grin crosses my face, and I can’t help feeling quite pleased

with myself in spite of the direness of the situation. So that’s what I’m looking for, a church. I

hope Jacob was right and this charcoal landscape is where the old churches used to stand. Even

more so, I hope amidst all the rubble I can find something truly incriminating.

I haven’t had a lot of luck as of yet and it’s starting to worry me. What if I can’t find

anything? What if there’s nothing to find? There’s every possibility Jacob’s searching all these

years has all been for nothing. Maybe—probably—the churches of the Old World are nothing

more than rubble, destroyed completely by the people we now call the Elite. I bite off a sigh of

frustration, but still refusing to abandon my big plan.

To my right I notice a building half caved in. It’s smaller than the others. It’s hard to tell,

but I’m willing to bet it likely wasn’t one of those buildings that disappeared into the skies. Its

bricks are blackened and what may have once been a door is little more than a pile of sticks on

the ground near an opening. But there is an opening. I go to it and step carefully over the cracked

wooden remains of the door. Inside, it’s stuffy and the air is stale. There obviously hasn’t been

anyone in here since it was burned down.

Once inside, I’m not sure what kind of building it is. The inside of it is different from most

of the Old World buildings I’ve seen or been inside of. Definitely wasn’t one of those sky

scraper buildings, that’s for sure. Moving deeper inside, I continue to study my surroundings.

There’s a long middle aisle that covers the entire length of the large, single room. Wooden

beams from the ceiling have collapsed on top of it, making it difficult for me to reach the other

side. Gray light filters in through the non-existent roof, making the room appear ghostly. The

quiet certainly doesn’t help. It’s not even the same quiet from outside. The quiet that fills the

west side of the ruins is all about instant destruction. It’s about the feeling people didn’t even get

a chance to take a breath before the end was upon them. This silence is different. I don’t know

why though, all I know is it feels… more peaceful somehow? Weird. I shrug to myself and

continue exploring.

Along either side of the middle aisle are rows and rows of benches. Many of them are

charred completely black and are chipped so bad they’ve collapsed in the middle. Some have just

been moved out of alignment, skewed so that they’re running into each other, and some even on

top of others.

At the other end of the room it looks like there’s some sort of platform or dais, but the roof

has caved down on it, covering it completely so I can’t see for sure what used to be there.

There’s little more than piles of dust and debris from the roof all along the floor. I jump

over it and sidestep as best I can. It’s so quiet here I can hear my feet echo where they touch

solid floor and creak where they hit wood. When I come to the wooden beams that block the

aisle, I gingerly try to climb over them. Bracing myself with my hands, wrinkling my nose and

hoping I’m not touching anything toxic, I dig my foot in and heave myself over the huge beam. I

think I’ve made it and crawl over other pieces of wood to the other side, when I hear an ominous

snapping sound.

I let out a cry just as the beams crack beneath me and I fall, landing hard on the ground

with a grunt pain. My breath whooshes from my lungs on impact. A cloud of dust drifts up into

the air, with light coming in through the roof making the individual specs of dust visible as they

float on the air. I lay on my back, gasping for air and coughing, taking a moment to make sure I

don’t have any serious injuries. I grimace, knowing I’m going to be sore later regardless.

I think I’m mostly okay, so I roll onto my side, ready to get to my hands and knees before

pushing up to stand. Before I do though, I pause, my eyes caught on something I’d never have

noticed had I not taken a spill of the beams. There on the floor, hidden under one of the long

wooden rows, is a small book. It’s old and barely larger than my two hands put together. My

eyes widen with surprise. I can’t believe I’ve found a book in this place. The only time I’ve ever

come across books with Jacob was when we scouted schools and libraries, and most of those

books hadn’t survived the brutality of time very well.

I worry this one hasn’t either.

With trembling hands, still shaken from my fall, I reach out for it, half afraid it might

disintegrate the moment I touch it. But it doesn’t. I breathe a minute sigh of relief and gently

slide it across the floor toward me. It’s covered in dust. I run a finger along the top of it and

wrinkle my nose, coming away with a thick layer of the stuff. I wipe my finger on my pants, and

taking a deep breath, I blow hard, blowing the dust off it, and making myself cough in the

process amidst the cloud that rises in my face. I wave a hand and wipe my nose, struggling not to

sneeze and pile on insult to injury.

When the dust clears, I can finally see the cover. I squint, but I’m only able to make out

one word on it.


My lips tilt in a small smile. Jacob, here I come.

Unbelief Book 2
161 pages

What happens when your eyes are opened to truth?

I dream that night of walking through the ruins. Strangely, I’m barefoot. Yet the snow beneath my feet doesn’t feel cold, I don’t even feel cold. Somehow though, I’m going the right way, I know I am. I’m not sure how I know… it’s just a knowing I feel deep down in my bones.

Sinna has stumbled into a world unlike any she’s ever known. Her eyes have been opened and there’s no going back. She’s never considered herself a Believer, she always left that to Jacob, but things are happening fast.

Is there something to this faith stuff after all?

And if there is, is it strong enough to see her through what’s coming next?

This is a dystopian series set in a post-apocalyptic world with hints of romance. Books should be read in order. May be cliff hangers. 


It’s easy to believe we’re still in the wastelands surrounding the Rehabilitation camp.

There isn’t much difference from one side of the wall to the next. The only thing any of us have

noticed that’s different is a small sense of relief within ourselves. I can see it manifested in both

of the guys. Alex sits sprawled next to me with one leg kicked up along the door frame, his boot

resting on the dash. Jasper, though still sitting straight and focused, appears to have lost a lot of

the tension in his shoulders that was visible before.

I don’t need to ask to know there are physical signs that have probably noticeably changed

with me too, since we made it through the wall. Somehow though I doubt they’re nearly as

dramatic. After all, I still have Jacob to worry about.

Jacob remains lying in the back curled in on himself, and he is the only one of us four who

doesn’t look any better. In fact, if anything he looks worse. Though the fever keeps his cheeks

rosy, the rest of him looks pale and sickly. Chewing on my bottom lip, a recent habit born of

nerves, I know we have to get him to a doctor soon. The fever won’t burn itself out, he needs

medical help, but that’s another of our problems: what doctor would treat him?

The barren lands past the fence are covered in thick white snow. They are flat, rolling out

for miles and miles, harshly beautiful and depressingly empty. It’s only after a certain point they

finally just disappear into the horizon, snow meeting sky, and I can’t see any farther. No matter

which way you look, it’s the same in every direction, except the one we came from. Even then,

once some distance spreads between us the white covered wall surrounding Rehab fades into

oblivion too.

Despite it’s deceptively flat appearance, the ground isn’t nearly as level as it looks because

the truck keeps rattling and rolling all over the place, jostling us all about as though we’re toy

dolls. I’m not concerned about myself or the soldiers. We can all handle a bumpy ride, no

problem. Jacob is already in such a bad state though… I’m worried he won’t make it.

“Can’t we find a road?” I finally exclaim to Jasper, after the last bump in the road tosses

me into Alex, causing us both to grunt and my teeth to clack together, my tongue in perilous

danger of being bitten.

Jasper grimaces, doing his best to keep the truck as steady as possible without sacrificing

speed. It’s not easy on the snowy, icy ground. “Not really,” he grinds out, gritting his teeth.

Another bump throws me toward Jasper this time. I throw out a hand to catch myself,

rolling my eyes in exasperation. “Any particular reason?” I demand.

“Well,” Jasper starts dryly. “There is the one where any road we travel will be monitored

by the Elite.” He swerves sharply when he notices a large mound of snow ahead of us. I brace

myself against the dash to keep from sliding into Alex again, gritting my own teeth this time.

“Then there’s the one where you and lover boy over there are fugitives,” he adds,

motioning toward Jacob laying in the back. “Oh, and of course there’s that little problem of us

breaking you out.”

I feel anger building inside me, combating the fear and exhaustion that would otherwise

make me curl into a ball and cry. “Hey, you two,” I start, motioning to both Jasper and Alex, “are

the ones with a plan, remember?”

Alex straightens in his seat at that, his foot falling from the dash back down to the floor.

“Whoa,” he says, throwing his two cents in. “I did have a plan, one that would be working out

just fine if it weren’t for sleeping beauty back there.” He points with his thumb back toward


“Last I recall, on my end, there was a plan that did not involve two escapees,” Jasper adds.

“Well he is here,” I remind them finally, my voice strained with exhaustion and anxiety.

“And he needs medical attention. Now.”

Both Jasper and Alex look away, staring out the window at the whiteness surrounding us.

When no one says anything I realize finally just how bad things are. Even though I’ve gotten

Jacob out of that camp, I’m still not going to be able to save him. Not without help and a doctor.

I sit back gingerly, half expecting to be tossed in the air again, and fall silent. I don’t know

what else to say. Glancing back over my shoulder, I can’t help looking at Jacob for the zillionth

time. He’s still sweating profusely, hair plastered to his forehead in stringy wet clumps.

Please let him be okay, I think to myself. But I know the mental plea is useless. I’m not

even sure who or what I’m pleading with. There’s no help in sight, just miles and miles of snow

that feels never-ending.

When I look forward once more, I see it. Through the windshield of the truck, off in the

distance I see something just barely visible through the hazy sky. At first, my heart sinks. I

squint, trying to bring whatever it is into focus. What if it’s another truck or an Elite checkpoint

we’re running right smack into? If it is, we’re done for, they’ll haul us right back to

Rehabilitation and throw us right back into that awful hole. What’s worse, this time they’ll throw

Alex and Jasper in too.

Guilt wracks me as I realize fully the risk I’ve put them both in. All of this just to save

Jacob, and it’s starting to look like he’s the one person who isn’t going to make it.

But when whatever is on the horizon looms closer—or rather, we get closer to it—I realize

“it” isn’t a truck and isn’t white at all. Not a checkpoint then. There’s a ring of fog up ahead

that’s making it difficult to see through, but whatever is visible on the horizon, it’s definitely a

darker color than the white Elite trucks and vans. It’s sharp edges jut out into the sky, and after a

moment I realize what it reminds me of.

The Old World ruins. My heartbeat quickens with a rush of hope and excitement.

“There,” I practically shout, pointing at it, now that I’ve identified what “it” is. The Elite

won’t be in the ruins. We can take Jacob there and— my thoughts skid to an abrupt halt.

I’m not quite sure what we’ll be able to do for him once we get there, but anything is better

than wandering around the wastelands aimlessly, with no real plan. Especially jostling about the

way we are in this truck. I’m kind of surprised he isn’t throwing up by now between the fever

and the rough ride.

“Where?” Jasper questions. Then he points in the same direction I just did. “You mean,

there?” His brows collide and his tone is incredulous, making it clear he’s not thrilled with this

idea. Either he doesn’t realize just what he’s looking at, or he knows exactly what it is and like

everyone else has been taught to fear it. I press my lips together.

“Yes,” I insist, impatient now that I can see potential salvation in sight. Jasper can’t take

any more, and I’m terrified if we don’t do something right now, I will lose him forever. “We can

rest for a while there and not worry about the Elite finding us. No one searches the Old World

ruins. They never do.”

Jasper busts out into hysterical laughter, shaking his head. He looks past me to Alex.

“She’s crazy. You’ve saved a damn crazy person, you know that?”

I frown, ready to jump in and argue, but Alex responds before I can get a word out. “Relax

Jasper. She’s from one of the outlying colonies. It’s not like she knows anything about it.”

Anger starts to boil inside me. “Excuse me?” I’ve been venturing into the Old World for

years! I most definitely know what’s out there. The burn of indignation heats my cheeks, and I

know they’re probably flushed bright red. But neither of the young men pay any attention to me.

They continue their conversation, talking right over the top of me as though I’m not even there. I

resist the urge to stomp my foot against the floorboard like a toddler.

“Well maybe you should explain to your backwoods companion how stupid an idea that is


I bristle even more at the backwoods comment and am just about to leap into the middle of

the argument and pick a fight with Jasper myself. Except when I look over at him and see his

face I realize with a flash of insight why he’s fighting so vehemently against my suggestion.

He’s afraid. It’s written all over his features, from the thin lipped frown down to his stiff

shoulders and white knuckles gripping the steering wheel.

“Look, maybe she’s got a point—” Alex concedes coming to my defense. I look over at

him in surprise, clamping my mouth shut.

But Jasper still isn’t having it. He shakes his head violently, his already white knuckled

grip on the steering wheel tightening even more. I can feel him next to me, rigid and stiff, his

body nearly vibrating he’s wound so tight. Through our entire debate, he has been veering

slightly to the left of the ruins, making it clear he has no intention of driving into them. Whatever

has him spooked is making it difficult for him to listen to reason—or take a good look at our lack

of options.

“No,” he insists, his flat tone firm with resolve. “There no reason strong enough to justify

going into a dangerous, radiation ridden zone. Did you even pay attention at all during our

history lessons? Don’t you remember what the war did to those places that bore the brunt of it?”

Alex rolls his eyes, though I can see his hand shake a bit and realize he’s scared, too. I’m

not entirely sure what radiation is, but I can guess it’s not a good thing and it definitely appears

to have something to do with the war.

“Oh, come on!” Alex brushes Jacob’s objections aside, trying to sound casual. His voice is

a little tight though, so his attempt doesn’t quite succeed. “That’s all just a bunch of rubbish used

to keep us out of them so we don’t go poking around in things they don’t want us poking around


Jasper only gives his head a vigorous shake, pelting Alex with a hard glare. “You really

want to be the one to test that theory?” he demands hotly. His voice cracks at the last, and I feel a

glimmer of sympathy in spite of my irritation. He’s really and truly scared, which kind of stumps

me. I’ve been inside the ruins countless times with no ill effects, so I just don’t get what the big

deal here is.

What Jasper says makes Alex fall silent though. He appears to consider things more

carefully. I clench my hands into tight fists, trying to rein in my emotions. Whatever this

radiation is, it’s obviously bad enough to make two Elite soldiers very afraid. Afraid enough to

contemplate getting caught and prosecuted by other soldiers rather than risk exposing themselves

to it.

“Look, I don’t know what this radiation stuff is,” I finally interject into the silence, when it

seems as though they have reached a stalemate. I try not to let my desperation tinge my voice.

“But I’ve gone into the Old World for years and nothing’s—”

As soon as it’s out of my mouth, both Jasper and Alex whip their heads around to stare at

me wide eyed, expressions wary.

“Wait. You’ve gone into the ruins?” Jasper asks, his voice carrying a mixture of awe and


My brow crinkles and I shrug, feeling weird beneath their sudden scrutiny. “Well, not

these ones specifically,” I say, gesturing to them. “But there are some not too far from the Gate.

Me and Jacob…” I glance back at him, my anger crumbling beneath the weight of knowing how

poorly he’s doing. “We used to go all the time,” I finish, swallowing hard. “Nothing bad ever

happened to us.”

Jasper and Alex share a look. “And you never got sick?” Jasper questions, watching me


I shake my head, giving him a confused look. “No. Why would we?”

Neither Jasper nor Alex say anything for a while, and I swallow hard and have to forcibly

relax my face when I realize I’m grinding my teeth.

“What?” I finally demand, when they’ve been silent far too long. Exasperation gets the best

of me as I shift in truck’s seat, crossing my arms with a huff and leaning back. I look from one to

the other, lifting a brow in silent expectation.

They don’t answer me. Instead, Jasper stares ahead at the ruins rising up in the distance,

getting closer and closer by the minute. I notice his hands are no longer guiding us steadily away

from them. He’s relaxed his grip and we are driving in their general direction, although he’s

slowed down the pace considerably. “Do you think it’s misinformation?” He glances over Alex.

Alex shrugs his shoulders. “I don’t know J,” he answers. “But it sure sounds like it to me.

And I wouldn’t put it past him.” I frown, wondering who “him” is.

The ruins have moved steadily closer while we argued over their safety. It won’t take us

long now to reach them. All we have to do is just continue in this direction and I know we’ll

make it there before dark…

“Are we really going to risk this?” Jasper interjects quietly into the truck’s silence,

interrupting my musings.

Again, Alex just shrugs, his careless smile back in place. “What choice do we have?” he

tosses back in return.

Jasper doesn’t answer. We all fall silent again, lost in our own thoughts as the truck makes

steady headway through the snow, creeping closer and closer to the ruins of the Old World

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Unbelief Book 3
165 pages

She can't walk away now...

This plan—this crazy, stupid, impossible plan—could work. At the very least, it will serve to get the boys back into the folds of the Elite, so they don’t come to any harm for helping me.

And it’ll get me back inside so I can try to save my father—but then what? How will I get him out? We have no guarantees this will even work…

Sinna is headed back to Rehabilitation.

Like it or not, she doesn't see any other alternatives. She can't just pretend everything is okay, and hide out in the Garden.

But how will they get back there?

And what will happen when they do? Will they be able make it back out alive a second time?

Sinna isn't at all sure about any of it, but her conscience won't let her back out now.


After talking with Tawny, I don’t know how I’m supposed to go to this party and pretend

as though everything isn’t about to change drastically. She wouldn’t give me any details,

wouldn’t tell me what was going to happen next, but promised she would get us out of the ruins.

When I tell Alex and Jasper, they immediately want details, but I don’t have any to give them.

“We just have to wait,” I say, brushing out my hair and cleaning up as best as I can to look

presentable for the party. “Tawny said she could get us out of the city.”

Alex is relieved, although he’s still nervous about all of the Elite roaming around and of

course not being able to take the truck with us. But Jasper, he doesn’t look like he’s all that

happy with the answers I’ve offered.

“She wouldn’t tell you anything?” he asked for the third time since I’d come back to the


I sigh and shake my head. “No,” I say, yet again. “She wouldn’t give me any details, just

said to meet me after the party and that she would get us out of the city. Which means we need to

be ready to leave as soon as that happens.”

Jasper purses his lips together, looking just as upset over things as he did the first time I

announced it to him.

“How can we trust her?” he asks, pacing the small tent in agitation.

I turn to look at him, my hands going to my hips. “What do you mean, how can we trust

her?” I demand angrily. “These people took us in. Of course we can trust them!”

“That was before they realized that we brought the Elite with us,” he points out, stopping

his pacing to stare me down. “You never should have told her they were here.” He looks as

though he wants to curse, but restrains himself.

I shake my head at him. “How could I not? They need to know, so they can prepare.

There’s no guarantee we’ll make it out of here before they discover the Garden,” I tell him. It’s

such a dangerous situation and if anything happens to the Garden, and more importantly the

people in it, I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to forgive myself. They’ve done so much for us, and I

feel like we’re repaying them with nothing but mortal danger.

“Look, I’m sorry they’re being dragged into the middle of this,” he says, voice hard, but

beneath it I can sense he really does feel like it’s an unfair turn of events. “But the fact of the

matter is, we’ve seen only how these people handle peaceful situations. When you put someone’s

life at risk, there’s no telling how they’ll react. It’s like being thrown into a cage with a pack of

dogs. If they’re well fed, sure, you’re not in any danger. But starve them for a little bit?

Suddenly, you’re looking like a pretty damn good meal.” That time he does curse, and makes me

feel like cursing too, but I don't.

“I can’t believe you’re comparing them to animals!” I say to him instead, half-yelling. His

analogy is so offensive, so awful, especially when I think of Alessandra’s wisdom and kindness,

that I just want to shake him and tell him he’s being ridiculous and awful. Alex steps between us,

holding up his hands in a soothing manner and interjecting with, "Calm down, he didn't mean it

that way." I just glare at him, telling him silently to stay out of it.

Jasper runs his hand through his hair, the muscles in his jaw flexing. “You know what I

mean Sinna. In the end, people get farther and farther away from civilized behavior, the closer

they’re put to danger. Especially if they’ve never encountered it before.”

I fold my arms across my chest and grit my teeth. He’s being awful and ridiculous, I think,

but there’s a part of me that realizes he’s saying these things because he’s worried. About us and

about them. So I take a deep breath and struggle to calm down so we can talk about this


“Okay,” I say, speaking slowly and as calmly as possible. “I get it. You’re worried. But we

have to trust them right now. If we stay, no one wins. If we go, we have a chance, and they do

too. And Tawny knows that. She’ll help us get out of here, if only because it means helping her


Jasper considers my words for a long moment. He’s not one hundred percent convinced, I

can tell, but I know he’s a reasonable person. He's one of the most rational people I've ever

known. I’ve made a good argument, good enough that he nods his head finally and capitulates.

“Okay. What other choice do we have?”

We all agree just as the tent panel pulls aside and Jacob slips in. “I’m not interrupting, am

I?” he asks, looking at each of us in turn.

Jasper’s face shifts to a blank, calm expression, while Alex's face shifts to one of

annoyance. I turn to Jacob and offer him a smile. I know it's probably pretty weak. I shake my

head. “No. We were just trying to work out some details, that's all. I thought you were resting?”

He ignores my question and asks another one of his own. “About the plan you mean?” I

can tell he’s working hard to make sure we include him in what’s going on.

I hesitate for a moment. What do I tell him? I can’t tell him that Tawny’s going to help us

or that the Elite are in the city. If he knows these things, he’s going to start suspecting we’re

planning on leaving soon. And if he realizes we intend to leave tonight, things are going to get


He’ll never let us go without him. I almost feel like crying I feel so frustrated right now.

I open my mouth, not sure what I’m going to say to convince him nothing major is going

on, but before I get the chance, Jasper speaks up.

“We were talking about the truck,” he interjects calmly. He adds just a hint of worry and

frustration to his tone, making him sound incredibly believable, and I find myself unnerved by

how easily he can lie. “We still haven’t figured out where we’re going to find fuel for it, and

until we do, we’re not going anywhere. The truck’s on empty and it’s too far of a walk to get

back to the Elite on foot. Besides, they’d ask where the truck is.”

Jacob nods his head, understanding. “Maybe we could ask around the Garden?” he

suggests, thinking hard about the problem. “If anyone would know what’s in the city, they

would, right?”

I smile at Jacob, feeling a stab of guilt that I’ve created a problem for him we’re going to

just circumvent altogether, but what can I do? “That’s a good idea,” I agree, stepping closer to

put my hand on his arm.

He smiles back at me. “We can ask Tawny,” he continues. “She’ll be at the party tonight

I'm sure. Maybe we could ask her then.”

I freeze for a moment. The last thing I want him doing is talking to Tawny. Although she’s

on board with helping us, I’m not sure she’s okay with me leaving him here, especially if he

brings it up that he’s going with us. Quickly, I say, “No. Let’s not.”

He raises his eyebrows at me, surprised by my response.

Thinking quickly, I continue, “I just mean that it’s a party, you know? I don’t want to ruin

it by bringing up us leaving. And I definitely don’t want to create problems for them. Whatever

questions we have, they can wait until tomorrow, after the festivities.”

His eyes search my face, and for a moment, I worry he can sense my lie. We’ve always

been so in tune, so connected, I’m scared he can see right through my words.

But instead of calling me out as I fear, he only nods his head. “You’re right. That was

pretty selfish of me.” He gives a short laugh and rolls his eyes in self-deprecation. “I can’t

believe what a jerk I am sometimes.”

My heart hurts at his words, and I want object, to tell him there is nothing selfish about

him. He’s always been so kind, so generous and I’m the one who’s a terrible jerk. But I can’t tell

him that, so I paste a grin on my face and give his arm a squeeze, before poking him in the

shoulder playfully. “You’re not a jerk, Jacob.” It’s the best I can do right now.

He smiles back at me. “Thanks.”

Our eyes meet and I feel my cheeks flush with warmth. I’ve missed him so much, done so

much to get him back, and tonight… tonight I’m going to have to give him up, this time of my

own volition. My eyes drop down to his lips and for a moment all I want to do is close the

distance between us and…

“So. Are we going to the party, or what?”

Alex’s annoyed voice snaps me back to the present and I give Jacob a shy, silly smile,

looking away and feeling flustered. “Yeah, of course,” I say, moving past Jacob out of the tent,

dropping my eyes to the ground.

I peek up at him out of the corner of my eye as we walk, trying to see if he noticed how I

was looking at him just a moment ago, if he could sense what I was feeling. He seems normal,

the same old Jacob he’s always been, but on his cheeks I see the barest hint of red. For a brief

moment, I wonder if maybe he had wanted the same thing I had.

Jasper and Alex slip out of the tent, too, walking behind us for a bit, but when I look back

at them, only Alex is still following us. Frowning, I look around and spot Jasper walking in a

different direction. I meet Alex’s gaze, raising my eyebrows in question as to what Jasper is

doing. Alex doesn’t answer, looking over to Jacob first before mouthing, the truck.

I’m not sure what Jasper needs at the truck, but I don’t say anything. There’s a good

chance there’s a reason Jasper has ditched us and I don’t want to bring unnecessary attention to

him while Jacob’s around.

The party is at the courtyard in the middle of the dome. It’s dark outside now and there’s a

fire going in the very center where a pit has been set up. People are sitting in a circle around it.

Some are in chairs, some are sitting on the ground, while others are sitting on what looks to be

logs and concrete blocks painted in a variety of bright colors.

Alessandra is close to the fire right now, standing and talking to the people surrounding

her. She’s telling them a story, I realize as we approach.

Jacob leans down to me and whispers in my ear, “Let’s be quiet so we don’t interrupt her.”

His breath is warm against my skin and tickles my ear. The blush that has lingered on my

cheeks intensifies again, and I nod mutely, my mouth too dry to speak. Across the fire, I see

Tawny sitting with her friend Seth and a few others. They’re quiet, with serious expressions on

their faces. When she sees me, our eyes meet for a long moment. Though nothing is said, I feel

like an understanding has passed between us.

I steer Jacob deliberately away from her, finding a few empty seats near several of the

residents of the city. They welcome us with smiles, introducing themselves and explaining that

Alessandra is telling everyone a story about the old ways.

I expect Alex to sit with us, but instead he remains standing, leaning against a tree just at

the outskirts of the gathering. I frown, but don’t have time to wonder what his problem is or why

he's behaving so standoffish.

Jacob puts his arm around me and immediately I’m lost in his warmth. I let my eyes flutter

close, leaning against him and taking this moment for myself, allowing myself to enjoy it and

forget the worries of the day, just for now. The melodious sound of Alessandra’s kind voice

washes over me as she weaves her tale of the old ways.

Once, we were a people who lived with freedom. Freedom to exist as we were meant to

exist, to trust and love and believe as we were meant to. But this freedom existed in a broken

world, a world permeated with something called sin. We were speckled spots of brightness in an

otherwise dark land, a land unknowing of its own evil.

In the Old World the people were enveloped by the darkness. They didn’t realize it though,

mistaking the darkness for pleasures of luxury and entertainment. They were a people caught up

in the things and comforts of Old World, in the fleeting enjoyment of the moment, disregarding

or oblivious of the damage to their futures, the damage to their souls.

They were a race of indulgence, and even Believers were caught up in the very sin they

spoke out against. Their faith told them no, these ways were not His ways, but the web of those

who didn’t believe was wide and sticky, luring them in with false prophets, pagan beliefs

promoted as truths, and misguided notions of free-will coupled assurances of worldly happiness.

Believers and nonbelievers alike were seduced with promises of self-gratification, and

riches beyond measure. Insidiously, the treasures of the world, of a single lifetime, became more

important than the treasures of heaven and eternity, because the treasures of the world were

immediate and tangible, even if they were nothing more than lies.

The people succumbed to these lies, poor souls who let themselves fall prey to the mindset

and thinking of the damned, unaware or unconcerned with all they were giving up. And the more

they sought ideas of 'freedom', the more freedoms they lost, enslaved to the sin that blanketed the

Old World. Faith grew weak and lust for power grew strong. Soon, there were wars being fought

over the ideas of freedom, wars being fought in the name of God, and it wasn't long before the

Old World became hopelessly divided and torn asunder.

This was when the Elite saw their opportunity. They had been waiting patiently in the

wings for the moment the Old World would begin to crumble beneath its own follies. When it

finally did, they realized they had their opening to seize power, and they moved swiftly.

They created a Council. A Council of Reason, made up of men and women who judged the

world by their own rules. Rules created not based on the moral laws of God, centered around

love for humanity, but rules erected and made unto laws created by the minds of weak men.

Rules and laws made under the limited scope and frailty of human understanding, rather than

humankind's limitless and perfect Creator. They condemned the Belief that drove people to war.

They scoffed at Believers, and made them out to be mad, Believing in something that could not

be seen or touched, or proven to the Old World's satisfaction. After experiencing so much death

and destruction already, many willingly accepted their decrees in a desperate attempt to find

peace for themselves and their families.

This opened a door that could not be closed and the Great War came about then,

swallowing the Old World in fire and poison. All those who opposed the Elite were destroyed.

The rest bowed in submission.

Except for this city. Alessandra's voice is ringing out proudly now as she wraps up her

story, a thread of steel in her tone I'd never heard from her before. This city is little more than

ruins now, a place left behind like a gravestone, marking the lives and deaths of the people from

so long ago. But we are here still. We are here, alive and well, because we are the descendants of

those brave few people who would not leave their home. Those people who Believed so strongly

in their God and their home and their faith that they could not be swayed to abandon any of


They survived so we could stand here today, a beacon of hope for those still lost to the

false, damning ways the work so hard to Elite enforce. To those still lost to Unbelief.

And we will always be here to help those in need, to welcome those running from the evil and

pain of the New World, from the soul destruction of the Elite and their regime.

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God Wars: The Beginnings
Unbelief Book 4
188 pages

In the Beginning...

Believing wasn’t always a crime.

Faith in God wasn’t always illegal.

In the glory days of the Old World, there were many who lived out their faith in full view of all, and taught their children, and their children’s children about God, their beloved Creator.

In those days, prayer was still allowed in schools, church was still held on Sundays with picnics and family get togethers afterward, and the spare change that jangled in everyone’s pockets still carried the words ‘In God We Trust’.

Then the God Wars happened. Life was never the same again.

This is a prequel. It's highly recommended to read the Unbelief Trilogy first.



When Ed Mullens dies, Sam Jackson is forced to accept the fact that all the men he trusts,

the only men he trusts, are getting old. He sighs. He has a new executive assistant these days,

Dennis Lyle, but he can’t say that he trusts him all that much. Not like he did old Ed Mullens.

Lyle doesn’t have the kind of dedication Sam expects of those privy to his inner circle. To

Dennis, this is just a job. Sam is fast approaching his eighties and his biggest wish is that he still

had the clarity of mind he’d possessed in his younger years. He’d always taken his sharp mind

for granted, and that’s never been more apparent than now, while his circle is shrinking.

Dennis is fast becoming a great disappointment. He has none of the qualities of his father

who had been the town mayor before he died. Lyle’s father knew and understood the value of

science and forward thinkers. He had been agreeable to relying on experts in various fields of

study for input and feedback regarding refinement of processes, and of pioneering new

endeavors felt to be essential to growing a strong and progressive society.

His son Dennis... not so much. In fact, Jackson is certain he doesn’t comprehend, much

less support the value of science at all. The only upside is that he hasn’t thrown his lot in with the

Believers either. In fact, he doesn’t appear to have a leaning in either direction, which is

annoying in it’s own right. “Maddening,” Jackson mutters. The man truly seems to have no

personality at all.

When Sam realized years ago that damned snoop David Moore had been hovering around

his house the day the secret council held their first meeting, his first instinct had been to kill him

then and there. “You have to crush the head of the snake while it’s still small,” he said at the


Robb, the chicken-livered wimp that he is, thought it would be a better idea to just fire the

man and discredit him. Jackson’s thin lips curl with remembered disgust. In the long run, he’d

grudgingly admitted that Robb's plan turned out all right. Moore made no trouble for anyone

once he’d been fired, and it didn’t take a lot of effort to help the man's reputation plummet. Once

he’d realized his big break wasn’t around the next bend, he’d retreated into a sodden state of

drunkenness. Sam smiles. From there it was nothing to share the gossip of David’s drunkenness

in the right circles and let human nature take its course. Moore was neutralized in no time.

Still, sometimes in the middle of the night, Sam loses sleep wondering what kind of trails

Moore might have left behind him. But he knows it’s useless to worry. Besides, enough time has

passed that even if something were to show up, it simply wouldn’t be possible to discredit the

Elite Group. It’s nothing more than a think tank comprised of some of the finest minds of the

century. An aura of sanctity has been carefully cultivated, and new, fresh minds are brought in

all the time, originating from some of the brightest and best graduate science programs around

the world.

Tonight, sitting in his condo suite, Sam has some measure of the peace he has always

sought. The people who look after him are well trained in everything from feeding him to

keeping his life organized. It had been difficult to let go of some of the reins of power when they

first began establishing the Elite Group, but somehow he’d managed. They’d paid top dollar for

top service and that’s exactly what they got. These days, they have the best cadre of scientists,

technical gurus and military intelligence money can buy.

Sam smiles again, pleased with himself. Governmental issues can be so easily controlled,

it’s almost laughable. All due to situations that are manufactured to achieve a desired outcome,

and key information that is disseminated to the right people the right time, for a specific purpose.

What’s that old saying, information is power? Indeed it is. Jackson chuckles quietly, the sound

getting stuck in his aging throat and morphing into a hacking cough.

He spits into a hanky, and stares out the window, blind to the golf courses that spread out

along the borders of his property and the golfers swinging their clubs. His gaze searches his

driveway, looking to see if any cars have pulled in yet. Jackson asked his cronies to come to visit

him this evening.

Rossi is losing it and it’s only out of courtesy for the old crook's past contributions to the

Elite Group that has Sam continued to include him in their planning sessions. Robb is laid up in

intensive care. His black old heart is failing him, which isn’t a surprise. Bob Reiger is mercifully

still at the top of his game. Gareth W. Pelzman... well, that there’s another issue altogether.

Gareth is younger than any of them but he has always been a law onto himself. Definitely the

wild card of the bunch.

Dennis Lyle enters the room and asks if he can be of any assistance. Lyle is a married man

and he has a couple of bright sons who appear to be far smarter than their father will ever be. So

unfortunate. Inwardly, Jackson sneers. Outwardly, he smiles graciously and says, “Please, take

the night off, Dennis. Go home to that beautiful wife of yours and relax. We're just going to have

a little poker session here and reminisce over our glory days.”

Dennis is married to Albert Rossi's daughter and she’s beautiful if you like thick-lipped,

big-breasted women with empty heads and little to say. The only reason Sam hired Dennis is

because Albert had made it clear it was the ‘right’ thing to do. That along with being Mayor,

Lyle's son made Dennis a good choice. Or so they thought.

He’s adequate, Sam supposes. At least for the kinds of tasks related to the Jackson persona

he presents to the world. Sam frequently attends gala fund-raising events but entertains very

little. When his old cronies show up at his place, to anyone who may be watching, they are just a

tight-knit group of crotchety old men enjoying retirement. Dennis, for his part, does what he’s

told and doesn’t ask questions. Mostly because he doesn’t have the kind of inquisitive nature that

demands answers. That kind of nature could be highly problematic for the great minds behind the

new social order, so there’s something else to be thankful for.

The other three men show up as Dennis is leaving. Albert takes a few minutes to chat to his

son-in-law and provide well-meaning advice on the care and rearing of his grandsons. Bob and

Gareth come and sit down with Sam. Before Albert joins them, Gareth cackles, “Maybe God is

on our side after all!”

Sam glares at him, wordlessly asking him a question.

Gareth shakes his head good-naturedly. “That flood. A natural disaster. It took out

thousands along the Bible Belt. A few more ‘acts of God’ as they like to call ‘em, and we could

really wipe out those persistent pockets of Jesus-lovers.” It amuses Gareth to mock the narrowminded

religion of the people he knew when he was a child. “Trust in God,” his grandmother

said. Their so-called God took away his family one by one and left him a helpless child, a lonely

orphan with an aging set of grandparents who barely knew who the president was at the time.

Albert enters the room and shakes his head. “I'm glad my grandsons inherited their

mother's brains. That husband of hers is a pretty poor excuse of a man,” he announces.

Sam Jackson glowers at him. “Well, I'm sooo grateful you persuaded me to hire him as my

most valuable employee,” he grumbles sarcastically.

Albert waves a hand in the air. “Oh you know he is competent, Sam. He just doesn't have

any oomph to him, that’s all. No guts, no glory, eh boys?” Albert snickers, plopping his aging

body into an empty chair near the poker table.

Gareth drums his fingers on the tabletop, waiting for the side conversation to end. When it

doesn’t, he butts in, booming as well as he can with his aging voice, “I was thinking that perhaps

we could learn something from this natural disaster, gentleman.”

* * * 


Margaret Moore celebrates her fortieth birthday quietly. It’s a day that should be

celebratory but in reality, it’s now only a day of sadness. Her father had died on his way home

from spending her birthday with her and her son, little David. Or, as she calls him, Davey. She

blinks, shaking her head. It’s hard to believe fifteen years have passed since that dreadful day.

Today, Davey is helping with the flood damages that have wreaked so much havoc on the

towns along the lower Mississippi. So, it seems like a natural day to spend time remembering her

father. Other than her son, she has no other family. Her mother died last year from a heart attack.

At least Davey telephoned her to wish her happy birthday. Margaret smiles as she looks at the

photo of her son, holding a prominent spot on the wall near the front entrance. He is such a

handsome boy.

Unbidden, she has an immediate second thought and has to convince herself it’s not an

irreverent one. She clucks her tongue, mentally chiding herself. But if she’s being honest, Davey

is proof positive that God has a sense of humor. Just like most firstborn children she’s ever

known, Davey is the spitting image of his father. A weird phenomenon, but she’s convinced the

first child a woman has inevitably looks like the father, whereas the second tends to look like the

mother. Whether that holds true or not with everyone, only God knows. But that was certainly

the case with young Davey, much to her chagrin. When Margaret found out she was pregnant,

she realized almost immediately that she didn’t want to marry the man who got her pregnant.

The man who in fact, had been her boyfriend for nearly two years prior. He’d been great fun and

all, and she’d liked him well enough, but he just wasn’t the kind of man you chose to bind

yourself to for the long haul.

Maybe it isn’t God's sense of humor but merely a pointed reminder that having a child with

someone binds the two of you together forever in an intangible but undeniable way. She’d lost

touch with Davey's father years ago, and sometimes feels bad about that. Occasionally she is

reminded how arrogant of her it has been of her to deprive Davey of a father.

Margaret and her mother had been close but she always knew that she and her father had

shared a special bond. After her parents divorced, she and her father developed a different sort of

relationship. It became more mature and their discussions often became intense and highly

political. This was partially because she had been sixteen at the time and it had become easier to

run his radical ideas by a sixteen year old who could intelligently argue back, than it had been to

have such discussions with a ten year old.

Her father had been on the road for much of Margaret's childhood, covering stories and

seeking out deep secrets and hidden agendas. He was a crusader for good, her mother always

said. Even still, she divorced him. She’d been lonely for one thing, living on her own and raising

a child. She also once admitted years later that she’d been afraid too. “Your father never had any

fear of the repercussions of sticking his nose in business it didn’t belong in, but I did.”

The reports after her father's fatal accident claimed it was caused by drinking and driving.

But Margaret knew better. He'd had one glass of wine at her birthday party. He was not drunk

when he left her and Davey and began the hour-long drive back to his own home. He had

however, been agitated and distracted, which she supposed could have resulted in the accident.

The media reports were highly skewed, she was certain. She always knew that for some reason,

the head of Robb Media hadn’t liked her father, even after the years of excellent service he’d

provided for that company. Because of that, she chalked the negative reports up to journalistic

chicanery and the whimsy of an antagonistic ex-boss.

For whatever reason, the newspapers sought to blacken his memory as much as they could.

Margaret possesses her mother's personality and she has always been much less inquisitive than

her father. She could definitely see him driving too fast, obsessed with whatever thoughts were

tormenting him that day, and losing control of his car. Despite that, part of her knows if only

she’d been more like her father, she’d have seen a plot behind his death and she’d have pursued

that plot, looking for the truth.

Margaret roams restlessly around her living room and looks out the front window. Eyes

turned inward, blind to the present world, she thinks back to that day his car had pulled into her

driveway. He’d opened his trunk and pulled out one enormous box. It was plain, made of

cardboard. She’d thought at first it was her birthday present, especially when that was the only

thing he’d carried into the house.

She’d pushed the door open wide, ushering him in and said, “Oh is that for me?”

He’d set the box down in her hallway and replied, “No. This is.” Then he’d reached into

his pocket pulled out a small package that he handed to her. She fingers the locket around her

neck. That had been her gift. A solid gold locket.

He’d given the box a small kick with his foot. “This is just some papers I'd like to store

here. Old research and a lot of memories.” His tone was reflective.

When she’d looked at him with a questioning gaze, he’d elaborated. “I'm downsizing and

sorting out some things. I'll have more stuff I'd like to store here, if you don’t mind. Oh, and is

there any furniture of mine you have a particular liking for?” She’d felt something then, some

frisson of unease. Maybe it had been God forwarning her of what was to come.

The box turned out to be full of family pictures, along with an old antiquated Bible, the

heavy kind with the gold-edged pages. It also held congratulatory cards that had been sent to her

parents on her birthday – her original birthday, the actual day she was born. There had also been

a file folder with a thick stack of articles neatly typed and stapled together.

When she had to close up her father's apartment after the accident, she and her mother

went through that box together. They’d laughed and cried and reminisced. Then they’d each

chosen which mementos they wanted to keep to remember him by. Margaret’s heart aches as she

remembers her mother’s words that day. “Sweetheart, you know I loved him too,” she’d

whispered tearfully.

All I could think of to say back was, “I know, Mom. And he loved you.”

At the end of it all, her mother took some of the furniture and Margaret took all his files

and his old typewriter. Now, on her fortieth birthday, Margaret thinks of that Bible and the

typewriter, both of which are on display in her front hall, set lovingly on a narrow, long-legged


She thinks again of the boxes of papers stored in her garage and the file folder she has

stuck in among the taller books on her bookshelf. All the family photos she and her mother had

diligently arranged in properly labeled albums.

Now, with Davey gone for her birthday, Margaret wonders if this was how lonely her

father had felt. Downsizing? He’d lived in a tiny, one-bedroom apartment. How far did he plan

to downsize, exactly? She remembers he often used to tease her about having absolutely no sense

of curiosity. He always credited her mother with giving her genes that kept her from sticking her

nose into dangerous places.

Feeling suddenly as though she’d let him down somehow, Margaret looks up toward

heaven and whispers, “I'm sorry, Dad.” Then she gets up and refills her wine glass. Letting her

instincts guide her, she wanders over to her bookshelf and pulls the file folder down from where

it has been stuffed for fifteen years.

She opens the folder and the first stapled collection of papers that catches her eye is one at the

back. It has a front page of yellow lined paper littered with her father's distinctive handwriting.

Bold big letters in thick black pen strokes. The rest of it is typewritten.

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About the Author

C.B. Stone is sometimes called author, writer, or purveyor of stories. One might even dub her a yarn spinner if you will. It's very possible she might be considered just a little left of normal by most, but she's cool with that. Really, she's too busy avoiding normal to care. On any given day, you might find Stone pounding away at a keyboard in sunny Florida, contemplating waves, contemplating life and dreaming up more exciting stories to share with readers.

Except Sunday's of course. Sunday's are God's day, so you'll often find her making her best "joyful noise" with her local church praise team. When not pounding poor fingers to bloody nuggets and reinventing the definition of eye strain, C.B. Stone enjoys living it up, doing the family thing, the kid thing, and the friend thing. And in her downtime, reading the minds of fans.

Also being invisible. Being invisible is fun.

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